I’ll get criticized for being stupid or lame or gay or whatever people want to say…
I need to make a change in my life and my life style.
I’m a materialistic, disrespectful waste of time and energy, it may not seem that way to many people but honestly if I sit and think about it I’m basically a waste of time because I could be doing more with my life then what I am now. I consume my parents money and they try do everything they can for me and even though I am extremely grateful I still feel like I under appreciate life and everything that I have. I live in my bedroom and I don’t socialize or open up to my family I just shut everyone out. I procrastinate more then ever and it’s starting to get bad and I am just tired of feeling useless because I’m so lazy. Being lazy won’t get me anywhere and all I am doing is wasting precious time that I will never get back. You can be the richest man in the world but money can’t buy time. I’m a impulsive spender and also I pretend to be someone I am not.
I need to change the people I hang out with because they are a huge part of the problem in my life
I Need to focus more on my studying and make sure I finish my commercial pilots license as soon as I can to make not only myself happy but to show my parents that I can do it and to make them proud
I need to stop drinking as well. I don’t drink that often but it’s still a waste of time and money and also alcohol is something that ruins your body it’s basically toxic.
I need it read more, I’ve never been the biggest fan of reading because of my attention span but I need to get my head out of my ass and expand my knowledge because knowledge is power.
I need to stop caring what others think and be less materialistic.
I need to stop wasting money on crap like unnecessary perishables and also junk food.
I need to be more of a family person and talk to my parents more and my sister. I’ve never been close with my sister but she is the only sibling I have and one day when my parents are gone we need to be there for each other so I need to bond more with her. My mom and I always fight and over stupid things I need to accept her for who she is and what she does and I need to make more time for her. My dad travels a lot for work so I need to when i can hang out with him make time and do so. I love my mom, dad and sister with all my heart and I don’t show that to them.
I know my parents have an unhappy marriage and I know that I am partly to blame but the reasons for that I will not go into but by doing all this stuff and by bettering myself I can make I difference for them.
I need to start exercising more not to look good or anything like that because I don’t care about that but more to be healthy and
MOBILE PHONES!!! That’s a huge thing to change. I want to get rid of my smart phone and use a simple Nokia that can text and call. Non of this constant social networking shit. I deleted Facebook almost 18 months ago now and I haven’t missed it for even a day and I need to do the same with twitter and Instagram.
I’ll keep tumblr because I’ll try start blogging how this whole change goes.
Swearing a disrespect is also something I need to make a change with. I swear unnecessarily and the way I speak about some people is just not right and it needs to change.
I spend probably about 80% percent of my day being unproductive and that’s what kills me the most the fact that I am wasting time.
I need to find people who are like minded to surround myself with and that’s going to be hard to find but nothing is impossible.
The only person who can make a change in your life is yourself.
Today I realized that I need to make that change and I will.
Even though it’s not completely relevant the movie that actually inspired me to make this change was “Christiane F” the German movie that’s a true story about a young girl who becomes a drug user at a young age. The movie just opened my eyes and made me think about my life and how grateful I should be.
The change happens now… It will be hard and it will suck but I’ll do it I’ll try my best to do this…
My edited picture….not good but not bad.